So its finally here: La Navidad, XMas, The Feast of St. Nick, CHRISTMAS!
Its exciting, definitely, but its going to be over before you know it! I mean, the O'Hara family rips through our presents in a matter of minutes. Actually, I should say, the O'Hara family
except for my little sister, Kaitlyn, who, despite the speed with which she can open a present, always has about 10 more to open after the rest of us finish. I guess those are of the spoils when the youngest also happens to be the only girl. Lucky brat.
I find that my parents just don't know what to get me. Most of my presents are ideas that I give them. The rest are nice, but not really personal. I guess it just reminds me of how little my parents actually know me. And it makes me realize that I really should get to telling them my little secret. But I'll be damned if I can ever find the right time without wussing out.
I break my post to report that, in the middle of Will&Grace, a commercial for a chat-line with the number 1-800-WEARE18 just came on, boasting pretty, apparently 18-year-old girls that would love to chat with you.
However, I'm pretty sure that this is the WRONG AUDIENCE.
Anyway, about me and the parents. I have had alot of people telling me recently that I really should tell them. And I want to...kinda. I mean, I feel luck such a _______ (insert the right phrase here, cuz I can't think of it) being the only one I know who hasn't told his parents yet. I mean, I know that it can't go THAT badly. They won't disown me. It might mess things up royally for a while, but I'm just not sure that I can handle that while, you know? I mean, things aren't that
bad now. Aside from my mom asking me every time I get back from school if I've met any girls, if I like any girls or blah blah blah. And then she gets upset when I won't tell her.
But ugh, I just don't want to screw anything up! I mean, I feel like on some level, they both know. My mom is just in denial. And my dad...he stays quiet about it, never brings it up, and seems fine ignoring it completely. Its weird, because my dad is the religious one, but I think he'd be the one less upset about it. My brothers have to know already, and it would become one more insult to use against me in arguments, but they just kinda seem indifferent.
Blah, I dunno. I guess I will just keep my eyes open for a 'good time' after the holidays end. We shall see. I'm sure everyone will know once its done. I told my cousin over Thanksgiving and she was great about it, but apparently her mom (my dad's sister) overheard. But she was really cool about it according to Lauren (the cousin). She was just worried about me, etc. but luckily she has come to terms with the fact that it isn't a choice, but something I was born with, etc. which I nice to hear. Maybe my dad will be of the same belief. And she acted the exact same around me, which was nice to remember after I found out that she knew. Its cool that more and more people are finding out. But I guess that just means the parents really need to find out soon.
I guess...
WOW. I totally did not mean to get into such a heavy topic on such a joyous occasion! I apologize for that! I guess I just needed to get some of that out. get it... out? that was lame. I'm sorry.
Well then, off to sleep for a few hours til Kaitlyn wakes the whole house to see what Santa left us!
Good night, sweet dreams, and merry Christmas!!!!!
