eek...

worst (maybe...) moment of the night:

getting punched in the stomach w/ a random wave of nausea while at work, and feeling sure that i was coming down with that damn Norovirus going around school. and the idea that i would have it during the upcoming weeks of hell.

actually, these next two weeks kind of make me nauseous by itself...

thankfully the nausea went away, but no matter how hard i have tried, the next two weeks wouldn't go away as well :-/

:-/

I don't like being left out...reminds me too much of middle school. And for the most part, I don't feel that way too often these days. Sometimes I do though. And its not just when I'm not invited to something. I can handle that, I'm a big boy. No, its when people take advantage of me because they think that thats an ok thing to do, that its no big deal, that I will understand.

Im fucking sick of being treated like a second rate citizen. Im not. I go out of my way for my friends, and try to give them the benefit of the doubt. But when shit like this happens, it pisses me off. I deserve friends who are going to go out of their way to be kind to me, to do little things just to make me smile, to just go above and beyond for no reason sometimes. I know that sounds snobby, but god damnit, i do.

ugh, i hate when i get like this...bitter, mad at the world, jealous of others. and i hate being in this position because i would feel like a total bitch and whiner if i confront them on this. and i hate how when i vent, i dont feel better. i just start to feel kind of empty, alone.

when is this all going to go away

Anne rocks my world

So there's this girl, Anne (Annie...Tammye Anne...resident sexpot...yea, thats the one). And GOD, i love this girl. I have the pleasure of living with her this year, and though that doesn't mean I see her all that much, I'll take what I can get.

Cuz just being around her makes you warm and fuzzy and happy inside. Plus, she checks me out alllllll the time...and makes sure to let me know. Despite her penchant for chatting me up w/ creepy people, I know she means well. And how could I ever stay mad at her?

Sometimes, we have long talks about nothing. they are fun...she pretends to get insulted when I joke her, so I slap her, and we have a good laugh. then we have serious conversations. if she needs help understanding what I mean, a good slap and shes following along perfectly. she really likes to get advice, but then never follow it. which works well, cuz I haven't the least idea what I'm talking about when I give out advice. its fun, you should try it sometime.

We have HOT lunch dates on Wednesdays, and I wouldn't give them up for the world. She helps me get through even the hardest times...and she grabs my ass alot. ;-)

I don't know what I would do without Anne. her presence is kinda necessary for my existence. she balances me out, I guess. She taught me to be optimistic last year, which was awesome.

So yea, I am so damn LUCKY to have such an amazing, hot, amazingly hot housemate/lunchmate/BEST FRIEND as Anne.

Love ya, girl