:-/

I don't like being left out...reminds me too much of middle school. And for the most part, I don't feel that way too often these days. Sometimes I do though. And its not just when I'm not invited to something. I can handle that, I'm a big boy. No, its when people take advantage of me because they think that thats an ok thing to do, that its no big deal, that I will understand.

Im fucking sick of being treated like a second rate citizen. Im not. I go out of my way for my friends, and try to give them the benefit of the doubt. But when shit like this happens, it pisses me off. I deserve friends who are going to go out of their way to be kind to me, to do little things just to make me smile, to just go above and beyond for no reason sometimes. I know that sounds snobby, but god damnit, i do.

ugh, i hate when i get like this...bitter, mad at the world, jealous of others. and i hate being in this position because i would feel like a total bitch and whiner if i confront them on this. and i hate how when i vent, i dont feel better. i just start to feel kind of empty, alone.

when is this all going to go away