I LOVE HER

Anne Hathaway is amazing. And this is why:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZuIdQVEVY0

you ACTUALLY need to watch this!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LU8DDYz68kM

watch it all the way through. there are like 10 surprises!!!

left out

So, as most people know, I have spent much of this semester reconnecting with alot of people that I barely ever saw last semester. I noticed that I lost alot of connections, or at least, let them suffer by spending almost every spare second at the Unit. Don't get me wrong, last semester was a shitton of fun; however, I felt really distant from alot of people. So I was determined to not let that happen this semester.

So I made sure to go all different places every night. I made plans with people. I spread myself out. I went new places. I tried to maintain old connections while making new ones. I never went the same place two nights in a row.

And you know what? I am exhausted. I tried to do too much. On the one hand, I have truly strengthened one friendship, which means the world to me (sqanque). And I have maintained some great ones (tru geauxgz). BUT I feel that I also sacrificed alot. By spreading myself so thin, I kept myself at a distance from so many people. And now, I feel like I lost alot. Especially from the people I spent most of my time with last semester. No longer am I included in everyday activities. I have to force myself into outings. I need to be proactive and call people, asking what the plans are. I swear, if I just sat in my apartment all day, it would take weeks before I got a call asking me to do something. And you know what? That fucking hurts. Alot. Especially considering I spent so much time and energy on them last semester (and this semester, if not as much as last).

Ugh. I hate feeling like this. This mentality has followed me since middle school, and I can never get past it, no matter how much I try. And the worst part is, no matter what I do, the people I wish would understand never will.

All three candidates in a statistical tie

http://www.cnn.com/2008/POLITICS/03/18/candidate.poll/index.html?eref=rss_topstories

This is going to be SUCH an interesting election. Also, very very scary.

I'm interested to see that Clinton is still holding her own here. You go, girl!

You go, grrl

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcMEL3_YsVI&eurl

tru shrug

my toe really hurts. like really bad. but i can tell that people are annoyed with me talking about it, so i am trying to stop. but honestly, when your toe is swollen to twice its usual size, the nail is pure purple and the base is completely black, something is wrong. it will go away soon...i hope.


also, i have had a bit of a relapse. not good.

Looks like I made a mess again
Heartbreak everywhere I step
This fire is getting hot again
But I touch the flame ‘cause I’m a curious cat
Creeping where I don’t belong
Finding out what I knew all along
Crying all alone
And it’s all my fault, all my fault


i'm being stupid. i don't want to talk about it. well, i do, but i'd rather it all just go away and talking about it makes it more real, so i don't know what i want.



also, this is not as big a deal as i am making it, so don't worry :-)