feeling better...

Sorry about the depressing posts lately. I was not dealing with everyone leaving for summer very well. I just can't get used to the fact that I won't be seeing people that i have seen every day for the past months. I have formed intense bonds with people, and now they are gone. So its really rough, but I just need to deal with it. And I am...it just took a while (and a few depressing entries).

Every once in a while, though, it hits me. Like when I found Joey's socks, and realized that I wouldnt be able to just hand them to him when i saw him later. Or when I was driving and 'Open Toes' came on the radio, and I thought about how much Jake loves that song. I know I will see them each at least once this summer, and I will def be really busy for the next few weeks, but its just a hard adjustment.

In other news:

My exam this morning was FAR harder than i expected it to be. Granted, I did no reading for it, and relied on the notes I took in class with my laptop. But still, it was hard! Whatever, its done. No more exams for the whole summer!!!

I have one paper (almost done) standing between me and summer vacation, but its proving to be one of the most difficult ones. I just am not good at arguing philosophical points about distributive justice, and why Wilt Chamberlain doesn't deserve twenty-five cents from each fan that comes! This is, as I type it, becoming one of the worst papers I have ever written. I don't even think its salvagable at this point, but lord knows im not starting over...

I'm going to the beach tomorrow!!!!!! yay!!!!!

Ok, i need to finish this damn paper so i can be in summer finally. But I shall leave you with a quote (read: further procrastination) from my new fav song (or one of the few fav new songs that Jake showed me by my new fav singer Bonnie McKee):

"Someday I'll go for the glory
I'll conquer everyones fears
And for once the ending of the story won't be tears
I have seen too much betrayal
I have heard too many lies
Someday I'll be purple lightening in the skys

I still see you when my eyes are closed
And tell me why I can't let you go
I still smell you inside of my clothes
Oh, honey... I can't love anybody but you, oh, honey... "
~Bonnie McKee, "Honey"

I am so addicted to her!!!