i should have known

that it was too good to be true.

(this is my blog, i'll whine as much as I want, thankyouverymuch. Also, venting here prevents me from doing it much to people's faces)

I was quite skeptical at first. I didn't put much energy into it, because I have had a rough past with these kinds of things. Over break, I slowly gained optimism, but pretty much kept it hidden, afraid to put it out there, to suffer public humiliation when nothing came of it.

But once we got back, things were good. I ventured out with my newfound optimism about my future. After the party, I freely and honestly answered questions, informing others of my excitement for the future. I did so even as things started to crumble, as my confidence decreased.

And now, here we are. The moment I expected from the beginning. And of course, I am regretting putting my feelings out there. I know, its bad luck, its not telling of my future. I know one of these days things will go in my favor, but jeez it sucks right now. My bubble got burst after such a long time of never letting it grow too big, and now I have to pick up the pieces and I am not sure when I will ever let it grow that big again.

ack. boys suck. i should just be straight.

...

so that's what "It's not you, it's me" feels like...

nice!

http://perezhilton.com/2008-01-14-double-the-potter

I am SO FUCKING EXCITED for this!

whew

So I got up bright and early to go to court for the tickets I got the night before my finance exam last month. I had gotten pulled over for turning left when the left turn signal was red. I didn't see it, as I was focused on the all-nighter I had ahead of me, so I had no idea why I was being pulled over. I had also forgotten to get my car inspected though it was due in November, so that added another $30 offense to the $100 (!!!) traffic light violation and $61 in court fees.

Fortunately, because I got inspected the next day and it was close to the due date, the judge (who was a less fierce and much friendlier version of Judge Judy) dropped that charge. Also, since the officer said I told him I didn't see the light and I confirmed that, she dropped the light violation to $50 plus fees, so in all I paid $111, which is $80 less than I was going to pay.

Whew.